The last few days

    There hasn’t been a moment in the last 4 days that I haven’t thought of Hydro. I’ve shed more tears in these days than I have in my entire life I think. I keep looking over at the chair he spent the last months glued in,  expecting to see him there

I’m not really sure how this whole grieving process is supposed to go. I’m pretty sure running on the treadmill at the gym, increasing the speed each time I start to cry, probably isn’t it. But it did help

Yeah, I was one hott mess- thats for certain. Especially when a dog commercial came on. 

Needless to say, I’ve made an appointment to see my therapist (whom I haven’t seen since sometime in November) and have been emailing tattoo artists (to talk about the tribute tattoo I plan on getting soon) and staying out of the house as much as possible. It’s far to silent around here.

Food has been pretty boring, but delicious

Monday I spent the day with a couple of friends. We headed to Ikea- that place was a crazy. We left completely empty handed because the line was all the way to the back of the warehouse- no kidding. Instead we grabbed some lunch, which was surprisingly awesome.

If only it had been cheaper- thats a $16 salad!

Today started with another training run while watching The Biggest Loser on my iPad. I’ve had 3 cups of coffee, eaten 5 times (and it’s only 3pm) did some laundry, dishes, and went for a walk- then brushed up on my Thai Massage skills

I have a massage set up for next Wednesday, and since it has been almost 2 years since I’ve actually given one, I need to practice- but first I needed to look over notes. I’m kind of nervous! At least it’s a distraction. 

So tell me what you’ve been up to

HealthyFudge +Massage + Mrs. Doubtfire

Phew.. we are over the mid-week hump!
    Yesterday morning I made a typical green smoothie for James and I to share for breakfast

  (Ignore the huge bowl of dog biscuits..) I think I was still asleep when I put it together.. I put way too much in the blender and ended up with far more than we normally drink- Well I must have subconsciously thought we needed some extra greens!
     We have been working on this awesome puzzle lately- when James and I have our afternoon coffee after work.. “The doors of Ireland"

  (We finished it tonight.. but it was too dark to take a picture.. so you’ll have to wait until tomorrow!)

Anyway.. after breakfast and another coffee (I’m such a procrastinator) I fit in a little workout..

   I finished in 7:35 and those Toes to the Bar were killer.. Try it out! (Tell me how long it takes you!)

    I worked at the Restaurant and had a client- We went through one of my favorite types of workouts.. the “Deck of Cards WO”… I was pumped and ready to kick some client ass! (I love my job!)

      After my PT client, I ran over to Trader Joe’s to restock coffee (you do not want to see me in the morning without it) and grab a couple of random things.. I even grabbed a bottle of wine before heading home to finally eat dinner

    James was out, so I was my own dinner date.. Unless you count the cast of “Family Ties” that kept me company thanks to Netflix.

    

   I woke up this morning SUPER excited.. It was massage day!

  Ahhhh.. So much better.. Preventative medicine people- Massage is necessary when you beat your body up almost everyday.. My massage therapist is the best.. She is rough, goes deep and gets out every knot I didn’t even know existed.. I <3 her.="her." p="p">      I made sure to eat well afterwards

 Big bowl of broccoli and a grilled cheese on the Paleo bread..

   Oh so crunchy and fantastic.. I’m so impressed with this bread.. I know your sick of hearing it- but have you made it for yourself yet???

     After lunch I made the twins healthy pumpkin fudge- I modified the recipe and used sweet potato in place of the pumpkin.. and spiced it with cinnamon and a dash of nutmeg… All together now..

   It was some sticky stuff.. (I may have stolen some bites here..) But I managed to smooth it out

 They were right.. the hardest part about this recipe was waiting for it to set in the fridge for a couple of hours. The moment finally came and it was worth the wait.

   YUM.. thank you ladies for making my week! I have a feeling this will be a regular snack over here.
 
Remember the coconut soup from the other night? Well I thought it would be a good idea to add some protein to the leftovers.. so I had grabbed some fish at TJ’s the add to it

  I have never had Mahi mahi.. or have used TJ’s frozen fish, so I was really excited to give it a try.. Unfortunately- it didn’t turn out well.. I choked a bowl down but it wasn’t good.. I don’t know if it was the kind of fish, the fact that it was frozen, or cooking it in the soup.. but it was rubbery and kind of gross. Oh well… it happens!
    Right after dinner we went on an hour long walk, through the slush leftover from today’s snowfall which was kind of like running on the beach.. My ass was burning by the time we got home! Good thing I went to teach yoga tonight- all about hip openers!
    Now it’s about that time of the night where I grab another chunk of sweet potato fudge and watch Mrs. Doubtfire for the 100 time..

Goodnight!