Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Scenes from the work weekend- I worked 26 hours and didn’t even make minimum wage.. (I’m talking $4.50 an hour) I just want to cry- rough. Sunday I didn’t have a single table, but I did see my co-worker break a fillet knife in half
And the cook made me an awesome lunch
(I obviously didn’t eat the bread) Oh BACON how I love you!!
Monday, I was supposed to start training… but it was a LONG weekend… so bed seemed like a much better idea- and it was ;) Eventually, I got up and went out for breakfast. I totally didn’t know it was a holiday here in RI (VJ day) so it was packed and we had to wait 20 minutes to just sit down. So really it was more like an early lunch than breakfast- but again there was bacon there.. so it was all good. Hah.
The rest of the afternoon we just hung out. I had plans to meet up with James for dinner- we have been getting together once a week just to stay in touch- and we settled on Sushi
Seaweed salad and Shrimp Nime chow to start
Along with 3 “Fancy” rolls to share.
From top to bottom- Russ Roll, Rainbow Roll, Indiana Roll.
While it was good to hang out (we missed the last two weekends- we usually get breakfast) I realized we didn’t really have a whole lot to talk about. Weird. You’d think after 10 years of being in a relationship and being friends with someone… we would have, but mostly (to me anyway) it felt like there was a pink elephant in the room. And there is. There are a number of things that we just shouldn’t and don't talk about- because one of us gets upset, then the other feeds off that, and well… then we fight.
That almost happened.
But before it escalated..
I just can’t do this to myself anymore… And I’m starting to realize that hanging out every week may just be a bad idea… at least for now.
So instead, there was Ben and Jerry’s, whipped cream and a movie- closing the night on a high note.
This morning (Tuesday) it was time to get on the ball with training. I actually got up, had coffee and started running just before 8am.. That is really a huge deal for me these days.. since honestly I’ve been staying in bed well past 9:30 lately.
We did 4 miles with a 9:25 average pace.
Afterwards I drove to the house to take care of the boys and make an amazing paleo feast!
I snacked on a banana while I cooked too.
Ground Turkey, onion and broccoli- cooked in coconut oil with some spices.. topped with an over easy eggy. Hot sauce liberally applied before stuffing my face.
After breakfast and a shower, I went too my new place to slap on the second coat of paint.
It only took me a just over an hour- not too bad. One more coat to go!
Paula and I met up soon afterwards for some coffee and errands- I might have stolen a chocolate from her.. but at least I got a nice message
Thanks Dove.. I think I will
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Here’s the deal…
We need to talk.
I’ve started this post at least 10 times.. But every time I start.. it’s just too difficult to put into words. So this time, I’m getting straight to the point.. No “Fluff”
I’m getting divorced
For the last 3-4 months, I’ve been doing my best to keep things to myself.. especially here. Which is why I haven’t been posting much and when I do it’s nothing of substance. Plus when your life consists of living out of a bag, not working out, eating shit food and drinking more than you should.. it’s not really something you “should" share.
(The Blue Mule)
But I’m a chronic truth teller… I just can’t help myself.
So judge if you will..
James and I decided to get divorced BEFORE our trip.. Like a week before. It wasn’t exactly smooth sailing and the few people that knew of the situation thought we were crazy for still going on the trip.. (ok, maybe we were a little). Behind the scenes- we fought, cried, and talked A LOT. Things happen for a reason right? Right. Feelings were hurt and trust broken on both sides… But being in each others lives as friends and family has always been #1 priority. (And don’t get my wrong, we still had a great time between all that stuff)
Once we got back from our trip, things continued to be difficult for me as we transitioned. I stayed away from our house as much as possible because being in “Our House” was just too much. Eventually, I decided to move in with a friend and James offered to help me build the room (it was an unfinished basement- which I’m still about a week out from actually moving into)
There are these moments when everything makes so much sense.. but just as many where your left wondering WTF happened. It really is a roller coaster- but there are small steps that you eventually take that allow you to make progress in the whole moving forward process..
Lets just say that isn’t a pretty process.
The good news is James and I are doing much better and hopefully will continue to do so.
(ok, so now you know.. the cliff note version, which is plenty for now)
Since last time.. Tuna spent some time with my by the pool playing with Ryder
And he actually stuck his head out of the window for the first time too!
I’ve done a couple of runs.. with a little bit of hill stuff..
I’ve definitely gained weight too… don’t judge me I’m working on it..
And even doing a little yoga alone- and started teaching a couple classes a week again.. literally going upside-down to change my perspective..
So here we go kiddies.. lets get back on track..
I even bought enough food for more than one meal!
Things are looking up ;)