Last night Hydro visited me in my dreams. I got on or was on a raft and I looked over to see Hydro just sitting there. I came closer to him, staring and looking him in the eyes. And then I howled liked I used to to get him to howl along with me. He watched and after the first time, he howled along with me and I immediately started crying happily as I threw my arms around his neck and we continued to howl together. Thats all I remember- but I felt so much joy and comfort in my dream and when I woke up from it.
I think I finally feel peace for him.
As soon as my morning alarm goes off, Adi comes in to the bedroom to crawl into bed and snuggle with me, and Tuna soon after. She reminds me so much of Hydro that I sometimes yell his name when I'm reprimanding her- and every time, it makes me smile. I love the little reminders of him in moments of aggravation or anger that just make me laugh and think about all the crazy shit he used to do. He impacted my life in ways that I can never fully understand or explain- and I am so grateful that I got to be his momma.